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marksouthbend's insane travels
Created on 2004-10-16 00:36:47 (#4844564), last updated 2007-10-04
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Basic Info| Name: | marksouthbend |
|---|---|
| Location: | South Bend, Indiana, United States |
| Website: | http://www.thesupertrip.com |
BioWho am I? I actually just figured this out today, or it wouldn't be this organized.
1. I'm someone who knows death, disease, destruction, loss of hope, and fear. I don't know these things because terrible things have happened in my life. Actually, nothing that bad has happened, so making this claim makes me feel a little embarrassed, and I extend my sympathies to those who became acquainted with these things against their will. But, foolishly, I brought it all on myself. I wandered away from the community, tried to do it on my own, thought I was a special case, thought I was a philosopher, thought philosophers do it on their own, and I ended up pretty much, well, alone. I should mention, though, I've always had a few people I could count on, and I appreciate them. But anyway, I saw what's behind all the distractions, and realized that nothing is permanent and nothing is safe.
2. I'm someone who found a solution--if not a solution, at least the greatest distraction I've come across to date--love. After making choices for a long time that weren't likely to lead me to happiness, I still ended up happy somehow around age 24, and I owe it to love. Love jolted me. It's pretty intense to share joys and burdens, after going through them alone or nearly alone for so long.
But I recently lost love. And not even recently, but I still feel its absence.
3. So I'm someone looking for my next great distraction. I'm running away to Europe to look there. But I'm not so sure the distraction is travel. I'm thinking it's more likely to be some mixture of fun, impulsiveness, and friendship. I shunned friendship somewhere along the way to try to see the truth. I needed space and time to think. But the truth I saw, or at least what lies outside of the comfort of the community, turned out to be way too much for me to handle. Knowledge of life's impermanence and our lack of control over it took me even further out than I intended to go. So, anyway, trying to go it alone has left me a little worn. I hope I can be a good friend, despite my lack of practice. I think I was a good boyfriend, and I hadn't practiced that. I'm a quick study.
4. Where's God in all this? Good question.
Probably everywhere, if anywhere at all. If I could figure out the right way for me to relate to God, I wouldn't call that a distraction.
1. I'm someone who knows death, disease, destruction, loss of hope, and fear. I don't know these things because terrible things have happened in my life. Actually, nothing that bad has happened, so making this claim makes me feel a little embarrassed, and I extend my sympathies to those who became acquainted with these things against their will. But, foolishly, I brought it all on myself. I wandered away from the community, tried to do it on my own, thought I was a special case, thought I was a philosopher, thought philosophers do it on their own, and I ended up pretty much, well, alone. I should mention, though, I've always had a few people I could count on, and I appreciate them. But anyway, I saw what's behind all the distractions, and realized that nothing is permanent and nothing is safe.
2. I'm someone who found a solution--if not a solution, at least the greatest distraction I've come across to date--love. After making choices for a long time that weren't likely to lead me to happiness, I still ended up happy somehow around age 24, and I owe it to love. Love jolted me. It's pretty intense to share joys and burdens, after going through them alone or nearly alone for so long.
But I recently lost love. And not even recently, but I still feel its absence.
3. So I'm someone looking for my next great distraction. I'm running away to Europe to look there. But I'm not so sure the distraction is travel. I'm thinking it's more likely to be some mixture of fun, impulsiveness, and friendship. I shunned friendship somewhere along the way to try to see the truth. I needed space and time to think. But the truth I saw, or at least what lies outside of the comfort of the community, turned out to be way too much for me to handle. Knowledge of life's impermanence and our lack of control over it took me even further out than I intended to go. So, anyway, trying to go it alone has left me a little worn. I hope I can be a good friend, despite my lack of practice. I think I was a good boyfriend, and I hadn't practiced that. I'm a quick study.
4. Where's God in all this? Good question.
Probably everywhere, if anywhere at all. If I could figure out the right way for me to relate to God, I wouldn't call that a distraction.
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arguing, art, books, challenging movies, chess, concerts, europe, foreign food, girls carrying books, golf, hiking, in-class discussions, irreverent underdogs, nature, not to cook, philosophy, thinking, traveling, walking anywhere
External Services:
 | marksouthbend@livejournal.com |
Schools:
Belleville High School - Belleville, MI (1995 - 1999)Florida State University - Tallahassee, FL (1999 - 2002)
University of Notre Dame - South Bend, IN (2003 - 2004)
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